Monday, 10 November 2014

Trying not to love you

Its been nearly one year since you left me and the wound still hurts. I should hate you, curse you but i can't. No matter how hard i try to hate i just can't stop loving you. Each time i see you my heart beats, just like the first time we met. You're voice weakens me, brings me down on my knees. I should be ashamed of me, but i'm not. Why is it so hard to forget you? Why is it so hard to stop loving you?
You made me taste the sweet and sour of threw me away like a piece of paper but...still....I JUST CAN'T STOP LOVING YOU

Tuesday, 10 July 2012

A stranger to myself

Have you ever feel alone in a crowd of people?..i guess many people have had their experience. Like the majority of people, i have a Facebook account with many friends. I deactivated my account last Sunday and no one noticed it...only just one close friend sent me a message about it. I guess i'm not that important...sometimes i feel like some people are friend with me because we have a friend in common. If i were alone, they wouldn't even noticed me. I have always try to act differently so as to be pleasant but the fact is that, its not me....they are friend with someone else..not the real me. I'm expendable, my presence doesn't make a difference at all. I'm under-rated..the inconvenient guy. There are so many things i wish i could discuss with them but they are not interested in what i am...i feel like i waste myself...i dig a grave long ago..i managed to get out of it..but in the end..i fell more in the abyss of despair and torment..i thought i reached the point of no-return but i was wrong..i am already lost. I always try to play the hero, like the one saving others,..but how can someone who couldn't save himself save others...

Thursday, 3 May 2012


Belief has a great power. If you believe in someone, then that someone may achieve what you expect from them. I play for a local football team, and i play as goalkeeper. Well at first i join them to keep fit and didn't expect to play in the league. But the first choice goalkeeper left and i was the only one left to play in this position. At that time i was 17 and i felt an enormous pressure on me.I wasn't tall like the majority of goalkeepers and i had to face the mockery of other teams and fans across the island. I made several mistakes but the coach and the players kept faith in me. It took me 4 years to finally be used to play in the League, the confidence that my team mates had on me made me want to progress. They believed in me and today i'm performing quite well and i must say that the defense helps me quite a lot.We got promoted to the 1st Regional division last year and now we are in race to get promoted to the Super League.

Wednesday, 2 May 2012

Achieving your dreams!

We all have dreams...we all wished to realize, some achieve it and others; like me,the dream remains a dream. Someone said that a dream is worth it until it hasn't been achieved. Since my childhood, i wanted to be a police officer-i guess like the majority of kids.As i grew up and was 18, i enlisted but i failed the selection-twice! It was not because i had health problems or unqualified, it was because i lacked 2.5 Cm for the minimum height. I felt depressed when i first got rejected-it was like a kick in the balls, the second time was more bearable as i was prepared for it. I wont't be able to achieve my dream because of my height, i wasn't even given an opportunity to prove myself. I just got dumped like an old piece of cloth.I feel rejected but at least, my conscious is clear. I tried to achieve my dream and failed twice...but at least...i tried